I do this when I can’t sleep….
Here I am, lying in my bed
A lightning storm going off in my head
And I wonder to myself
Am I better off dead
Cause I really suck when it comes to being a friend
Cause I always get caught up in the drama
Caring to much and knowing I never had a father
And getting into pathetic little pissing contests
Making it seem like I have an ounce of confidence
When really I’m just a sad little girl
Who’s scared of the world
Scared of the truth be told,
I’m just gonna be alone
Staring at the ceiling as the storm unfolds
And wondering what it’s like to be
Anyone but me
Cause I suck you see
I’m not meant to be truly happy
Cause when the cards are laid out
I’m going down the river
It’s just a game of poker
And I just know that I’m gonna fold, her
There’s always a better option
She’s totally rockin’
And I’m just forgotten
So I sit here in my bed
Watching the lightning going off in my head
And wondering if it’s an epileptic seizure
And I’d like to meet her
if she really exists
dream girl who’s not me
who’s truly happy
and doesn’t have a care in the world you see
cause I’m just closing my eyes
and the lightning goes off
does it hurt to die?
